I never want to portray the image that life is always easy that its always smooth sailing…cause it ain’t. In fact, mornings like this morning always serve to remind me of how very human I am and how Supermom, I am definitely not.
Just when I was relishing in the fact that my two month old son has slept through the night two nights in a row (the two BEST nights of sleep I’ve has since about February…), I got out of bed. That was my first mistake. I should have pulled the covers up, rolled over and pushed snooze a few more times. Feeling pretty good after a couple nights with solid shut-eye, eating right, exercising (doing this for the last week more or less….) I step on the scale to find that all of my hard work has done absolutely nothing to the number that keeps staring back at me. It hasn’t budged…not even a pound. Now, now, I know what you’re thinking, its not about the pounds, its about your overall health…muscle weighs more than fat, yadda…yadda…yadda…While all this is factually sound, you cannot TELL me that when you step on the scale you’re not hoping or praying that your magic number will pop up…
The morning proved to be even better as I spilled coffee on myself in the car, got all the way to my mother-in-law’s house (she watches the kids on Tues/Thurs) and realized I forgot Tyler’s bottle…no bottle, no food, no happy baby. I turned around, drove home, called work told them I’d be late, got the bottle and drove back. (of course its not a far drive, but frustrating none-the-less.) I’m not going to mention all the little things that happened in between that all screamed, “Noelle, you don’t have it all together…you can’t balance all of this.”
Of course I can’t. At least not in my own strength, I do need superpowers. The wonderful people in my life who give of their love and time and talent to bless my family, the God who loves me unconditionally- all provide the affirmation and support I need to make it through each day. So, a morning like this reminds me to be thankful for all that I have- thankful that I have health, and joy and peace.
I am thankful.